The concept of a higher power is something I still struggle with to believe in. But what I can believe is there are far more things I cannot control, and maybe thats my higher power. Breathing into that right now <3
On a purely experiential basis, life is mostly out of your control. The sounds you hear, the smells, your thoughts, everything that fills your sense, those are not created by you. Nor directed by you. For the most part.
For you it doesn’t have to be linked to any form of higher power or God or whatever you might call it, but coming back over and over again to the simple fact that most of life is outside of your control IS your devotional practice?
This way you would get to infuse your day to day with immense depth while still being able to hold lightly the potential existence of this higher power.
My first reaction to a man saying trust is the key to everything was…well, a female tirade of thoughts. (Men can leave a drink unattended, take an Uber alone at night, walk at night, without the floodgates of cortisol wreaking havoc within.) But I see through that, into your words on the divinity of Trust itself; past the human experience and into the soul’s. In my spiritual reawakening (still ongoing), hearing “It is safe to trust the Universe within you,” set off an alchemaic scavenger hunt I’m still following. I’m going to do your breathing exercise. Meditate on trust. And keep trying to learn/experience how different the divine masculine is from toxic masculinity. Your essay expanded me today. Thank you (I think😂)✨
Awww Jennifer! What a sweet comment. I am so glad the bottle I threw in the ocean struck a chord for you. And that you let me know about it.
It sounds like you are in a beautiful and difficult phase of deconstruction. What is my essence, what belongs to society but that I had to take on to be safe? What do I need to get rid of to live a simpler life, closer to my value, my heart, and my soul?
And what is the difference between toxic and sacred masculinity? Which part of me is the sacred masculine and how to make peace with it?
These are questions that have and continue to ignite my curiosity and courage to excavate the shit that’s been piling up inside of me.
Thank YOU for reaching out. Am so so glad that my words found a knot and that you willingly breathed into it.
Let me know how you go. And stay tuned here. I’ll be posting sometime soon some free breathing exercises :)
I remember your breathing advice the first time I joined you for a run and almost died of short breath after 200m - deep inhale short exhale - short inhale deep exhale. The first seconds seem forever, panic is just around the corner, but after that comes relief and calmness and running becomes meditation 👌 still with me
The concept of a higher power is something I still struggle with to believe in. But what I can believe is there are far more things I cannot control, and maybe thats my higher power. Breathing into that right now <3
On a purely experiential basis, life is mostly out of your control. The sounds you hear, the smells, your thoughts, everything that fills your sense, those are not created by you. Nor directed by you. For the most part.
For you it doesn’t have to be linked to any form of higher power or God or whatever you might call it, but coming back over and over again to the simple fact that most of life is outside of your control IS your devotional practice?
This way you would get to infuse your day to day with immense depth while still being able to hold lightly the potential existence of this higher power.
My first reaction to a man saying trust is the key to everything was…well, a female tirade of thoughts. (Men can leave a drink unattended, take an Uber alone at night, walk at night, without the floodgates of cortisol wreaking havoc within.) But I see through that, into your words on the divinity of Trust itself; past the human experience and into the soul’s. In my spiritual reawakening (still ongoing), hearing “It is safe to trust the Universe within you,” set off an alchemaic scavenger hunt I’m still following. I’m going to do your breathing exercise. Meditate on trust. And keep trying to learn/experience how different the divine masculine is from toxic masculinity. Your essay expanded me today. Thank you (I think😂)✨
Awww Jennifer! What a sweet comment. I am so glad the bottle I threw in the ocean struck a chord for you. And that you let me know about it.
It sounds like you are in a beautiful and difficult phase of deconstruction. What is my essence, what belongs to society but that I had to take on to be safe? What do I need to get rid of to live a simpler life, closer to my value, my heart, and my soul?
And what is the difference between toxic and sacred masculinity? Which part of me is the sacred masculine and how to make peace with it?
These are questions that have and continue to ignite my curiosity and courage to excavate the shit that’s been piling up inside of me.
Thank YOU for reaching out. Am so so glad that my words found a knot and that you willingly breathed into it.
Let me know how you go. And stay tuned here. I’ll be posting sometime soon some free breathing exercises :)
I remember your breathing advice the first time I joined you for a run and almost died of short breath after 200m - deep inhale short exhale - short inhale deep exhale. The first seconds seem forever, panic is just around the corner, but after that comes relief and calmness and running becomes meditation 👌 still with me
Remember that moment vividly. Thank you for walking me down memory lane. Did you ever run after that?